christmasbazaar's Blog

I feel so uninspired today. Or most days. I feel my mind slipping and sinking into trivialities , sex, cigarettes......its irritating because it makes me feel so useless. So common. You can't lie to yourself, no matter how hard you try. This feeling is with me most of the time. Implicit assertion. That ,coupled with self esteem issues, is...well, very pleasant indeed. Haha. Sometimes I think, I'd probably die if I weren't this flippant.